Sometimes I realise what a fool I am for others...in many ways.

 

I give myself so freely and completely to others, be they deserving or not. It has always been my philosophy that in so doing, I will find some true friends amoungst the duds, and that the pain caused by the duds is negated by real worth of the true friends I make.

 

 

I know a dangerous fact about myself. I never stop caring about anyone who has touched my life. People who were friends before...and no longer are...actually...I still care about all of them, right down to the worst of them. And I know I always will. (For some of them, it has already been almost a decade...)

 

Once you are in my heart, you can never leave it, even if you leave my life in the most horrendous way...

 

 

I will continue to stick to my guns on this one though, as I believe that I would rather do the right thing my whole life and never be appreciated, than never do anything worthy of appreciation.

 

 

Just because so few are deserving...doesn't mean I shouldn't make the effort anyway. Because really, I am just as unworthy as they are. By grace we are all loved...

 

 

Laterz.

M@