Sometimes I find it hard to keep loving.

 

It is what I want to do, what I know it is right to do, but it can be hard to do in practice! When things do not seem fair, and others really do not understand you (or do not even try) it can really make it hard to love them the way you should.

 

Recently, one of my friends has, I believe quite unwittingly, really offended and upset me. In spite of my patience with them and their issues, they have shown me absolutely no patience or sympathy with my issues, and indeed, have not even asked me what is wrong before making a rather harsh statement. I just feel so angry at this hypocrisy an arrogance...I just don't even want to talk to this person, because they have really hurt me. But I know they actually do care, they are just rather abrasive and insensitive at times.

 

This is when I need to learn how to hold my tongue and not say what I feel, for sometimes saying what I feel burns bridges--and I hate doing that.

 

It can just be so challenging though...especially when you feel so strongly about things.

 

I seldom do things by halves! (Especialy emotionally!)

 

Still-part of love is loving the unlovable. Loving because it is right, not because it is requited. Loving because I have first been loved--by Jesus. As hard as it can be, I know it is the only way. One does not light a lamp and put it under a bowl. One lights it and hangs it up, so that it can give light to the whole room. I must not put my light under a bowl, but let it be seen by all. My consistent character, in time, will be proof of who I am.

 

M@